Sep
26

Today Typhoon Ondoy visited the country bringing distraction, nonstop heavy rain falls, floodwaters, traffic, deaths and so much mess!

Luzon is flooded everywhere and there are lots of area that are so much in danger. Huge traffic jams clogged the roads as floodwaters caused many vehicles to stall. Waist-deep flood and a number of people are reported dead or missing. Metro Manila and other areas were already placed on state of calamity.

These are some of the photos that I have seen throughout the net. I will post it here in my blog.

A lot of cars were submerged in flood.

Shows waist-deep flood

This picture is taken in Makati and shows the flooded underground pass.

People walked due to lack of public transport. A lot of people are stranded.

Residents were forced to stay on the rooftops of their houses

Gen. de Jesus St

Loyola Heights, multiple cars stuck in the middle of the floodwater

Marikina

Flooding was reported in many districts and on roads reported with waters in some areas reaching as high as the rooftops of one-storey buildings. Other areas are far worse than others with missing people and deaths. Many are still trapped without food as rains continue to pour down.

PAGASA added, typhoon Ondoy continues to move with a maximum sustained winds of 85 kph near the center and gustiness of up to 100 kph. and is expected to leave the country’s area of responsibility by Monday morning.

This disaster makes me think of the upcoming movie 2012

Sep
08

It’s that time of the month again! I hate this period! Why do women have to bleed? Seriously, it’s painful, messy and such a nuisance! Argh! I can’t help but be all grumpy and moody. So what to do when I’m feeling very very nutty? Well, go see a movie ofcourse!!! 😀

So today I finally went to see the movie UP in 3D, its been in the cinema for weeks now. Kinda cool I never tried watching a 3D movie before. The pictures are all floaty and stuff, if only they’ll let me keep the 3D shades =) hehehe. I cried on the first part of the movie… it was really sad when the old guy, Carl’s wife Ellie died. Yeah I know I’m such a softie… I always cry in the movies. The bird Kevin and the dog are really funny, specially, Russell, that boy really crack me up, its also funny ’cause when he speaks, its like he has a mouthful of spit 😀 Love the story! Up really satisfied the kid in me. Pixar is really amazing when it comes to animated films! I just love love love their work!

Sep
07

I’m fed up with lies and men. And specially flirty people. It’s time to focus on myself right now. Even if I’m still pretty down lately… I guess everyone needs a good cry and I did just two days ago I cried my heart out… and feeling much better because of it, well, a little. But hey atleast I stopped moping! And after my long hours of self pity, I read Sophie Kinsella’s Remember Me? hahaha thats a really good decision, it’s a very funny inspirational book. I just love how Sophie writes– very sassy and fun. That book really helped me overcome my petty sadness, so I recommend that book to anyone who is feeling pretty down.

And also listening to happy music like the Wonder Girls Nobody song really helped.

Actually, I went out to a booksale tonight. Sigh that really lifted my spirits up, & bought 7 books and got special discounts! 😀

So after my blogging I’ll be spending my night with a book and a smile.

Sep
05

It’s been so long since I cried so heartwrenchingly so. My chest feels so heavy and tight. I am shattered. Apart in my skin. And I’ve never felt so worthless before until now. Like I’m in the bottom of the barrel. And all I feel is self-pity for I am so worthless. I would die in this world and although few would miss me, but not that much for I know I have never done anything in this world worth anything at all, no one will truly look for me. I could die in my room right now and no one would know until I’m very cold and gray.

And I am indeed worthless, its a fact. And nobody really knows me… who I really truly am. My family and friends, specially, the man who I thought who loves me can go on with their lives being happy and having fun.. not thinking of me. I could easily be forgotten. Taken for granted by everyone.

For months now I’ve been looking for love inside books, devouring every word for word. Wishing I am the woman in the book that the man really really love with his whole heart and with so much devotion. No one ofcourse, can find perfect love, but everyone deserves to be loved and for months and months now… I’ve felt unloved.

Maybe I’m just wasting my tears… but right now I dont care, I’ll be sleeping on wet pillows tonight.


Aug
27
GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY
Just last week I promised myself that I will refrain from buying books and better take care of my money. But how could I ever stop myself?
I just got back from the mall and bought 3K worth of books! Talk about a book-o-holic! Well, atleast I bought a book that I’ve been dying to have –My Travelers Wife and Bad Moon Rising… tsk tsk tsk bookworm bookworm bookworm!
I really must stop myself, but is it a crime to love books?! 😦 If only I’m rich… I would buy a bookstore or better yet buy a share/stock from Powerbooks or Fully Booked, my fave bookstores, and profit from it! I’d get to read books and sell them too!! sigh.
Gee my stomach is still full from the chicken pesto & chocolate cake that I ate at dinner hee-hee. Well, I deserve a break from home cooked meals, and I must say I just love pesto and I’ve been craving for it, thats why I wanted to go out.
What a mess! Just yesterday I greeted my crush a happy birthday, not knowing what’s the real date of his birth, I just assumed that its either on the 25th or 27th of this month. Hell, what kind of stalker am I if I don’t get this important details right? LOL Oh well, he said it was not his bday, I dont know whats his issue for hiding his birthdate… not that I’m planning to drag him and ask him to celebrate it with me hehehe (dream on) Guys like him have too many things on his mind. And not that I’m planning on anything on my lovelife… I’m content on what I have now… knowing theres no perfect guy. And that the men in my life are just friends, most of them are very close. No romance… nada1 I better stick with the crushes that I have on my books, they’re far better eventhough they’re fictional. :p

GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY

Just last week I promised myself that I will refrain from buying books and better take care of my money. But how can I ever stop myself?

I just got back from the mall and bought 3K worth of books! Talk about a book-o-holic! Well, atleast I bought a book that I’ve been dying to have –The Time Traveler’s Wife and Bad Moon Rising… tsk tsk tsk bookworm bookworm bookworm!

I really must stop myself, but is it a crime to love books so much?! 😦 If only I’m rich… I would buy a bookstore or better yet buy a share/stock from Powerbooks or Fully Booked, my fave bookstores, and profit from it! I’d get to read books and sell them too!! sigh.. dream dream dream…

Gee my stomach is still full from the chicken pesto & chocolate cake that I ate at dinner hee-hee. Well, I deserve a break from home cooked meals, and I must say I just love pesto and I’ve been craving for it, thats why I wanted to dine out, and it was worth the trip (utter bliss) =)

I made a fool of myself just yesterday! I greeted my crush a happy birthday, not even knowing what’s the real date of his birth, I just assumed that its either on the 25th or 27th of this month. Hell, what kind of stalker am I if I don’t get this important details right? LOL Oh well, he said it was not his bday, I dont know whats his issue for hiding his birthdate… not that I’m planning to drag him and ask him to celebrate it with me hehehe (dream on) Guys like him have too many things on his mind, always busy busy busy. And not that I’m planning on anything with my lovelife… I’m content on what I have now… knowing theres no perfect guy. And that the men in my life are just friends, most of them are very close. No romance… zip-nada! I better stick with the crushes that I have on my books, they’re far better eventhough they’re fictional. :p

Aug
24

Here is another musing of an average anti-social girl.

When you feel like a failure and you are disgusted with yourself and feeling very emo at the moment… distract yourself by daydreaming or writing on your blog, well, thats what I am upto at the moment.

Geez, I’m trap in a loop and i cant damn get off!

And I am super tired. Sleepless yet again last night… I tried to finish off my current project. Sheez my client’s been bugging me for the past few weeks… though I am nowhere near finish atleast I was able to get a load off, got a big chunk out of my back and did a hell lot of workload finished ha! (Pats own back)

Eventhough I am currently doing freelance for the um past year atleast I am getting paid really good, and able to spend and buy books each month or each week(?). Darn it.. speaking of books, when I saw my credit card bill I was really shocked that most of my expenses are from buying books! Sheesh! So now I’m on a book diet and will refrain myself from entering bookstores for atleast a month or so… that is if I can control myself. I live and breathe reading… my television doesn’t even function anymore… and the only appliance I often use is my lamp and my laptop, well, you may include my fan hee! But that’s it. Yeah I am such a loner… (please shoot me!)

I really wish its still July. I loved that month, not only because its my birth month, but mostly because it feels like Christmas, I may not have gotten loads of gifts last month but there are a lot of parties, birthday celebrations, etc etc… and I’m often out of the house, and I was really really happy.

So why? why why I feel like a failure? Presently, my mom is really mad at me, well, not really mad but rather irked. I may have promised some few things to her that I was not able to do until the last minute. And also for the past few months she’s been a really good mom to me and I feel like I am a very disappointing daughter and also it feels like I’m not good enough….. (insert sad music here)

And I am not being a good christian either. Yesterday it was my uncle’s birthday and all of my family went to his house and celebrated, I said I’ll follow and will be there, but I didnt go and I didn’t even greet him… I slept all day! Well, its too late to greet him now right? I feel bad about it. I did not even go to church. I do not even pray at night anymore… I’m becoming pagan. Well, I tried to practice witchcraft before… lets make that “tried” bolder since I never got to it really. It’s just before… I really wanted more out of life. But still I’m getting really tired of the usual shit in this world… (long sigh here….)

Oh geez, here comes my emo moment. Good thing I have plans this Saturday with my friends… although I’m not feeling upto it but atleast there’s something that will take my mind out of moping and cursing myself for lacking for so much. I am seriously becoming delusional too and I may need years of therapy from between the walls of a padded room. @_@

Oh and talk about the drama in my family! My cousin who’s the same age as I am is 4 months pregnant. She already told me this like 2 months ago, and time and time again I kept telling her to tell her parents, she really needed their help… and then finally just last week (i think or 2 weeks ago) she told everyone, ofcourse, with the help of her persistent cousin namely myself, she confessed that she is with child. But geez, left and right all conversations revolved around her, the baby, the father, and on and on and on same topic. I’m not really complaining about the issue they kept repeating y’know but they better talk about something else soon or I may start wearing earplugs when I’m with them. (redundant much?)

And my poor cousin, she’s being forced to do stuff that she does not want, even the father of her child is being forced to change religion (btw, he is a baptist) and my aunt wants him to convert to catholic and do lots of stuff– this and that. Gee they want to run their lives! Good thing I’m not in that situation. (Oh the complexities of family)

Still I just want to be a pacifist and not argue with the lots of them. I hate hate hate conflict, war, disputes…

And I’d rather not give a damn opinion, ’cause sometimes those words stab you at the back, and I don’t want to eat things I’ve said that may get back on me like y’know bad karma. So there!

Oh and this is becoming a long rant… better stop now.

Jul
16

I’m so excited to watch the movie Harry Potter & the Half Blood Prince. It is my favorite book above all Harry Potter Series. It is a very very exciting book. I can’t wait what the story will be like on film. 😀

Jul
14
Menstrual Frustration
I’m in pain and terribly weak. During this time of the month I curse being a woman… though I know its part of womanhood, but dammit! I’m aching and constantly bleeding! Period, the major monthly headache. Dont blame us women for having too much fuss about it and for also having PMS. I know I shouldn’t heavily rely on pain relievers, because somehow they have side effects and for some old folks weird notion they shorten life spans. But right now those meds are my very bestfriends. If hugging those pills will not look weird I would be doing that right about now. Geesh, the cramping is bad and I even feel nauseaus. I just have to deal with this again.

I’m in pain and terribly weak. During this time of the month I curse being a female… though I know its part of womanhood, but dammit! I’m aching and constantly bleeding! Period, the major monthly headache. Don’t blame us women for having too much fuss about it and for also having PMS. I know I shouldn’t heavily rely on pain relievers, because somehow they have side effects and for some old folks weird notion they shorten life spans. But right now those meds are my very bestfriends. If hugging those pills will not look weird I would be doing that right about now. Geesh, the cramping is bad and I even feel nauseous. I just have to deal with this again.

Jul
13
I woke up today by the sound of raindrops falling outside my window. Such soothing sounds that my head fell right back on my pillow. I really love the sound of light rain and the change of temperature it brings. I curled up inside my blanket and sighed. This would be much better if only I have someone to cuddle with. I love cuddling specially on days like this…
and on days like this I feel so very lazy.. haha who doesn’t want to spend their whole day on bed when its so cold outside? I feel like sleeping again or maybe reading a book. But I have work to do… and I’ve been putting it off for days now. But first, I have to check my facebook and write here in my blog hehehe and maybe read a book when all work is done.. I dont want to lie to myself afcourse that kind of work I’m referring to will take days to finish. Because I have to study it first and I have to finish the site come august… geesh now that I’m thinking of it I have to rush. When times like this happen I stress myself.

I woke up today by the sound of raindrops falling outside my window. Such soothing sounds that my head fell right back on my pillow. I really love the sound of light rain and the change of temperature it brings. I curled up inside my blanket and sighed. This would be much better if only I have someone to cuddle with. I love cuddling specially on days like this…

And on days like this I feel so very lazy.. haha who doesn’t want to spend their whole day on bed when its so cold outside? I feel like sleeping again or maybe reading a book. But I have work to do… and I’ve been putting it off for days now. But first, I have to check my facebook and write here in my blog hehehe and maybe read a book when all work is done.

I don’t want to lie to myself ofcourse that kind of work I’m referring to will take days to finish. Because I have to study it first and I have to finish the site come august… geesh now that I’m thinking of it, I have to rush. When times like this happen I stress myself. And I mean time sometimes run so fast.

Btw, today is my Aunt Rose’s birthday. She used to stay with us, but now she is staying with her daughter abroad. I must admit I miss her, she is very caring and she loves to talk to me and she often gives me the latest gossip hehehe. Anyway, she must be having fun with her daughter and grandkids right now. I’m just thinking of her and her son, my long lost cousin Jaye, who I haven’t seen for months now.

Jul
12

Warning: Blabber and more crap ahead…

Last Monday. Watched Ice Age 3 by myself while waiting for someone who was 4 freakin’ hours late! And then sat at Starbucks and read a book… well, more like a women’s fiction book. Seriously loner day.

Tuesday. I was dead all morning. Edited and uploaded pix and stuff to the net. Totally Boring.

Wednesday. Got so fucking irritated. But kept mum about it. Crap and bunch of shittery! Also got invited by former office mates to a bon voyage dinner or coffee something, but I was so out of myself that I didn’t go, it was cancelled anyway.

Thursday. I was so weird this day. My mood scale was off the charts! I was a cuckoo! A nucking futs!

Friday. Ate dinner at Siege. DAMN i really love their Tuna Pasta, its heaven on a plate!

Saturday. Visited my friend Ana and her 2 cute babies, my godchildren (well, atleast one of them is). I was on my gift-giving visit…makes me think I’m getting older… not that I want to have a child now. I really don’t think I’m going to be good with kids, I can play with them for just a while and then get tired easily. I really can’t handle all the whining and the sugar-rush-energizer kids, I mean seriously. But I’m a very generous spoil-em-good godparent, ‘coz I’m cool like that.