Jul
10

It’s so sweet I want to puke.

Shittery and all that crap ensues. It shouldn’t bother me but it does— a bit, it does.


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Jul
08
A friend is nothing but a known enemy.
Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect and everything that goes along with with your self esteem.
I bought a gun and chose drugs instead.
I had a really good childhood up until I was nine, then a classic case of divorce really affected me.
I really haven’t had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I’d rather tell a story about somebody else.
I started being really proud of the fact that I was gay even though I wasn’t.
I was looking for something a lot heavier, yet melodic at the same time. Something different from heavy metal, a different attitude.
I won’t eat anything green.
I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.
I’m so happy because today I found my friends – they’re in my head.
I’m too busy acting like I’m not Naive. I’ve seen it all, I was here first.
I’ve always had a problem with the average macho man – they’ve always been a threat to me.
If it’s illegal to rock and roll, throw my ass in jail!
If you die you’re completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. I’m not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I’ve got.
If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to ask someone else first.
It’s better to burn out than fade away.
It’s okay to eat fish because they don’t have any feelings.
Punk is musical freedom. It’s saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster’s terms, ‘nirvana’ means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that’s pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock.
Rather be dead than cool.
The duty of youth is to challenge corruption.
The worst crime is faking it.
Thought the sun is gone, I have a light.
Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.
We have no right to express an opinion until we know all of the answers.
We’re so trendy we can’t even escape ourselves.

A friend is nothing but a known enemy.

Drugs are a waste of time. They destroy your memory and your self-respect and everything that goes along with with your self esteem.

I bought a gun and chose drugs instead.

I had a really good childhood up until I was nine, then a classic case of divorce really affected me.

I really haven’t had that exciting of a life. There are a lot of things I wish I would have done, instead of just sitting around and complaining about having a boring life. So I pretty much like to make it up. I’d rather tell a story about somebody else.

I started being really proud of the fact that I was gay even though I wasn’t.

I was looking for something a lot heavier, yet melodic at the same time. Something different from heavy metal, a different attitude.

I won’t eat anything green.

I’d rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not.

I’m so happy because today I found my friends – they’re in my head.

I’m too busy acting like I’m not Naive. I’ve seen it all, I was here first.

I’ve always had a problem with the average macho man – they’ve always been a threat to me.

If it’s illegal to rock and roll, throw my ass in jail!

If you die you’re completely happy and your soul somewhere lives on. I’m not afraid of dying. Total peace after death, becoming someone else is the best hope I’ve got.

If you ever need anything please don’t hesitate to ask someone else first.

It’s better to burn out than fade away.

It’s okay to eat fish because they don’t have any feelings.

Punk is musical freedom. It’s saying, doing and playing what you want. In Webster’s terms, ‘nirvana’ means freedom from pain, suffering and the external world, and that’s pretty close to my definition of Punk Rock.

Rather be dead than cool.

The duty of youth is to challenge corruption.

The worst crime is faking it.

Thought the sun is gone, I have a light.

Wanting to be someone else is a waste of the person you are.

We have no right to express an opinion until we know all of the answers.

We’re so trendy we can’t even escape ourselves.

Jul
08

“Thank you for the tragedy. I need it for my art.”- Kurt Cobain

I have to admit that sorrow is indeed a motivation for an artist.



Jul
08

This is just a draft well sort of a brief explanation about a friend who I am having a current issue on.

She’s been my friend ever since college. And she is being difficult.

She is doing the cold shoulder on me when I dont even know the hell I’ve done wrong with her! I do get a gist of it or I have a theory that she feels that she was being neglected by my peers and I. But no, that is not true, I’ve always texted her—invited her on every gimmick or major occasion we have or outing etc. etc. She is always the one who is unavailable.

I don’t know the heck I should do with her. She never even greeted me on my birthday— for what? for feeling ignored? and its not even true! Geesh I hate to say it— but is that what I am to her??? Some friend! I’ve always been so nice to her– and even extra good, because I know how she gets.

It’s just pisses me off, she is freaking 26 years old! and its like she’s acting like a high school girl.

But I do miss her still. She’s always been fun to be with… and ofcourse, she is my friend.

I don’t know how will this play out between us. I did texted her about how I feel, and upto now I never heard a thing or two from her. I hope she stops being complicated.

Jul
08

I have a crush.. who I’ve been crushing on since I met him years ago. He is a pretty decent guy, very fun to be with and a major flirt. We both get along so well and I am so comfortable with him. Years ago I really thought he has a thing for me, from the way he talks and his actions. I’ve always been the kind of girl who acts indifferent when it comes to my crush. I am just waiting for that guy to make the first move. I was in too deep, and then I found out that he has a girlfriend… ofcourse, I was really hurt–dangnammit! I was a fool, I got so carried away… and from then on I promised myself I won’t get swayed by him again.

I am a fool!

For the past few weeks I began talking to the same guy again. I thought we are kindred spirits. We have the same passion for arts and we both understand each other or atleast each others humor. Gee I really enjoyed talking to him again. I’ve been out of the loop for so long and its nice reminiscing with him. I was beginning to like him again… there are also times when I believed he likes me too… or so I thought, but here I am again an utter fool-a nut job. Lately, I’ve been noticing that he is flirting with other girls as well… I mean really major flirtation! And then I ask myself I don’t need this do I? I really don’t and I should have learned my lesson from the very first time with him— that when it comes to guys who runs hot and cold… I will never ever win no matter what! And I should stop hoping… as I always am.

My relationship status is— from friendster’s copyright quote “It’s complicated”— yes complicated!

It’s really hard to explain all the details, and I don’t feel like going back in time and explaining, but I did have previous posts that you might like to read about my love life…

You see, I have a steady boyfriend, yes I know, I shouldn’t be ogling or feeling things with other guys. But In my defense I have fallen out of love from my current boyfriend a long long time ago and I’ve been biding my time or more like formulating a plan when I will tell him about my quitting the relationship. I am more like scared about it and that..its really hard to do it, specially, when my family and friends really really liked him. I admit I am a coward. And I hate confrontations. I can’t explain this further its just hard.

But I thought I was able to move on this time and leave my past lovelife if only I can have that guy. The guy.

Gee in love and life there are so many challenges, not everyone will have their happy ending. There is no such thing.

Sigh… I’ve never been this jealous for a long time.

I just have to get over it.

I should just quit loving all together- a waste of time and heartache.

Jul
08

Just a quick summary of my birthday celebration:

I’m broke!

Lol, yes I celebrated my birthday for 3 days, but with different people.

It all began last July 3rd with my old officemates from my previous company. I really missed them all and its been a year since I last saw them. The celebration was really fun–we ate at greenbelt and then went to Bluewave after, but theres only 8 of us when there should have been many, it’s so hard to get in contact with people. Anyway, I still enjoyed the night with them and I also got a bit tipsy by the end of it.

On the 4th of July, I celebrated with my close friends. Thats the second pre-birthday celebration. We ate at Racks at Mall of Asia and went to LAX and Bluewave afterwards. There are only a few of us, six people to be exact, again its so hard to make people come to this sort of occasion. I’m the one spending and all they have to do is to attend! Sheesh! Anyway, I’m glad I get to spend it with my really close friends. Friends that are always there no matter what. Although, my very bestfriend was not able to come because she was out of town at the time. But she did call and sent loads of messages and that is more than enough atleast for me. I was also missing another friend who should also be there but that girl has serious issues, I never heard anything from her—I was kind of disappointed with that person, but that’s another story.

On my birthday! July 5th… I spent it with my family. We had lunch and ate and ate so many food LOL

My diet is ruined! And I think I gain a zillion pounds from all the food I’ve eaten for the past few days.

Oh well, I did warn myself that I will drain my pocket and gain a few pounds. And I did. Atleast, I will cherish the memories of those days for the rest of my life— hahaha

Jul
02


growing old
sigh… im getting older and older every year ofcourse… birthdays should not be celebrated, it’s a reminder that we are getting closer to the invetitable death, and our lifespans are slowly diminishing… every day counts now. I am not happy that my date of birth is in 3 days. Another reason I should hate the date is that I’m gonna spend money just to celebrate the day… I know I know, I really dont have to spend, buo be with myt its required.. and I guess that I want friends and family so its a given that I’m going to empty my wallet pretty soon. Second, is the planning… I hate planning I’d rather be the one who will enjoy the event that’s already been planned.. And lastly, birthdays are a reminder for me that my life achievements is nothing but a joke. What have I done this year? I’ve never been productive, but I’ve been Imaginitive. Yet again I’m reminded of how petty my life is…. here I am again with self-pity. Oh well, I really wish my day is something to be remembered…

Sigh… I’m getting older and older every year, an inevitability that is sometimes frightening. Not that I am so old now… I am still in my mid twenties, but still… thinking about getting older, getting wrinkles and all the stuff that goes along with aging is darn frustrating, and yet a lot of people celebrate birthdays?!

Frankly speaking, It should be made law that birthdays should not be celebrated! It’s a reminder that we are getting closer to our death, our lifespans are slowly diminishing every minute! (Paranoid much?) Maybe we can call it the birthday syndrome. I am really not happy that in 3 days I’ll add another year to my pathetic life . Seriously, another reason I should hate that day is that I’m gonna spend money just to celebrate it with people… I know I know, I really dont have to spend, nobody is bullying me to out some cash, but my friends and family expects me to… and also, I guess that I want to spend that day with them, so I won’t be forced to mope around my house and count the days of my coming doom. Ha! I am so weird.

Sooo its a given that I’m going to empty my wallet pretty soon. And the second thing I despise about birthdays, are the planning… I hate planning I’d rather be the one who will just enjoy the event. If only someone in my family or friends who is willing enough to do all those things. And buying an outfit for the event is also another thing to think of, makes me think that I’m so fat and nothing fits right. Lastly, birthdays are a reminder for me that my life achievements is nothing but a joke. What have I done this year? I admit I’ve never been productive enough and there’s nothing worth bragging about. And I’m reminded of how petty my life is…. here I am again with self-pity. Oh well, I really wish that my birthday is something to be remembered if not for me atleast for others who will enjoy it… not that I won’t have fun I guess I would–atleast.

Geez I am a disturbed and confused nut. @_@


Happy birthday! We’re all gonna die soon!

Jun
29

Because of it’s popularity and also because of the great reviews given to this movie– I can’t help but join the crowd by also watching Transformer 2: Revenge of the Fallen. And ofcourse I wouldn’t pass viewing it on the big screen- heck its a block buster!

Anyway, I’m glad I’ve seen it, the flick definitely delivered! Amazing visual effects, great story… and the action scenes–smash, crash and bam—greatness! lol there are a lot of scenes where I was worrying for the autbots’ welfare.  Plus the hot actors are a bonus as well!

I really envied Megan’s sexy bod and plump lips! She is most definitely a scene stealer hehehe… Labeouf did pretty good too, although, he acted like a weird mental… “Repeat itself. Repeat itself. Repeat itself. Repeat itself. Repeat itself” —frankly, that part is disturbing! @_@ I also cringed on the part where he went in-front of the class.

And oh yeah, Bumble Bee (who still can’t talk) is still my most fave robot of the bunch. A Bot with a personality! ^_^

Overall, it rocked.

Anyhoo, I watched it twice, the first time with my old buddies and the 2ND time with my old office mates. Funny, on both cinemas, no matter where I am, there are still a lot of annoying loud people… men and women alike who laughed sooo freaking loud! Anyway, since its the movie of the month–we are all like packed sardines in the theater! Can’t help it. So I’m planning to just buy the DVD once its available and properly enjoy it at my house.

Jun
24

What’s up with everyone in my family getting pregnant or married? I think I am the only one who is not settling down. And the only one in my batch in the family who is not married or has a child. It’s not like I’m complaining or anything, although, I sound like one. It’s just that, I feel time move sooo fast. I just wish I can keep up with the pace. I’m still stuck in my own world, y’ know.. more like stuck in books and in my fictional realm HA! If only I can control time and make my world real. Sigh… in love and in life I am like an outsider..an observer who just looks at it, and never participates in it. Should I complain? Is this what I really want in life? I thought I’m content with just this, but I dont know. Hmmm until I figure out what I want in life… I’m still here day dreaming… passing time…

Jun
24

How many times did I curse myself last saturday??…Well, atleast a dozen times!

The reason?

Coz I freaking lost my wallet!!!


I dont know where in G4 I lost it, if I left it at the food court or at the ladies room. Seriously, I was at a lost and I was not thinking straight at the time. But still, I’m the one to blame, I am soooo careless! Anyway, the wallet includes my SSS ID, my 2 mastercard, citibank card, bpi atm, sm advantage, mercury drugstore suki card, my massage discount card, and P1500+… good thing I was able to call and block my credit cards and atm before someone else could use it. Too bad I really like that wallet, and Im still thinking what else I lost in there.. I hope the one who got my wallet really needed the cash. Geee, but I’ve been down lately ever since. And I have to apply for another SSS ID and stuff… sighhhhh…

Atleast, I learned a lesson from this… be more attentive, double check everything before I leave a public restaurant or comfort room.. etc. and presence of mind. :/